NERDS UNITE!

101: goodbye

2009-06-30T01:07:00.000-07:00

I'm going back to xanga.

Its www.xanga.com/eunice_balloony

100: wondering

2009-06-29T19:01:00.000-07:00

I am desperate to go to school. I heard the physics teacher is... I heard the literature teacher is... And I'm wondering, how on earth am I going to make it through the 2nd semester doing my best. Like, I don't want to judge who's gonna be teaching me, cos then it'll affect the grades of that subject. :\

I can do thisssss!

Bye loves

(Sometimes people don't know how ridiculous they sound.)

99: we've all grown up

2009-06-29T04:59:00.001-07:00

We see things differently, we don't feel the same anymore.

There's just something I really wanna say, but I really gotta pee. Why is it that I always talk about pee at night?

LOL.

(edit)

So as I was saying before I was interrupted by nature's call, I had a very good conversation with _ last night. We talked from 12-130 in the morning. I became so aware of things. There's a speck in my eye! I was reminded of an episode in House, when this guy broke his finger, and started prodding his body. Then he said his whole body hurt, when the real culprit was the finger. Like I was wearing black sunnies, so I see the world without color. Just shades of gray. About how I feel so bogged, like there's never enough of "me" to commit to school, to God, to friends. _ told me that ** told _ about the 5 loaves and 2 fishes. How God made it multiply to feed everyone. At the end of the day, there were leftovers! Even when Kat mentioned it yesterday morning, I made no connection. And on Friday, I was talking to _too, and I finally told someone that I was glad I didn't get fantastic grades for PSLE, cos the choices I made after that would glorify myself and not God. _ told me that @#$ asked once, who honestly studies for God? What I think came out of it was, that God will use our education to glorify Himself if He wants to, so don't self-indulge in being a mugger. I never thought that studying excessively was a "sin". Ultimately, I just wanted A1s, I just didn't want to be seen as stupid, or not good enough. When will I ever feel that living a Godly life, one worthy of the Gospel, will be good enough for me? I thought about how many years I wasted. Three, people, three. Turning points, eh? On Friday night _ and I also talked about wisdom. About how sometimes, you see something, and you know what to do, but are not sure of whether the time is right to do something. God tells you to simply wait, and how hard waiting is. But loving God is never a feeling. Its a decision. Caring is a decision. That applies for all friends too.

So now, I'm really grateful for _, **, and _'s friends.

Thank God.

98: hello beautiful

2009-06-28T06:28:00.000-07:00

Oooooh I missed my tablet (:

So the last time I posted was on Thursday. I can't rmb what happened on Friday. Oh yes, I do. I woke up, watched some teevee and youtubed. Went to town for dinner, then bussed to church for CH! 190 was packed, I stood the entire journey. Very firming LOL.

Saturday was lots of fun too. Woke up, went to town again, went to church for Youth Sunday rehearsals. They went well... Yup. Saw Clarice for the first time in a long long time. I missed her so much! Dance was fun. I'm so glad my black pants nightmare didn't come true :P After rehearsals, I waited, at Clarice's insistence, for the shuttle bus to WDL. 45 MINUTES. In that time, 4 901s passed by. By the time we settled for dinner, it was 830/840? I left at 9 to Christabel's house to sleepover ^^ It was funnyyyyy. The first most awkward moment of my entire life. ZOMGGGGG LOL.

Sunday we all woke up kinda late-ish. Morning was alright, svc went fine. After was a bit... Messy. Anyhoos, shan't elaborate anymore. OH. The second most awkward moment of my life HAHAH.

I wanna go go!

Bye loves ^^

97: fighting spiders

2009-06-25T22:54:00.000-07:00

♥♥♥♥♥!

96: quarantined.

2009-06-25T20:04:00.000-07:00

So. I just finished 1/3 of my chinese homework. I feel so accomplished, I'm gg watch FS.

Peter and Sam, sittin in a tree...!

95: Federick Fielding!

2009-06-23T19:28:00.000-07:00

You're a chicken!
No, I'm not. Peter, tell him.
Charlie does not bear the slightest resemblance to the bird of a foul persuasion.
Huh?
Charlie's not a chicken.

I'm over the mooooooon!

94: Lovato

2009-06-22T08:42:00.000-07:00

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Gonna Get Caught lyrics

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Two Worlds Collide lyrics

Lyrics | Demi Lovato lyrics - Believe In Me lyrics

93: Cheer

2009-06-21T07:55:00.000-07:00

The teacher calls on you in class, but you haven't been paying attention, and the first thing that you blurt out is:
"The flying nun, definitely."

What do you really think about where you live?
I would love to move back to Australia, or my old home.

You're writing an essay for class, but you're listening to music, so you accidentally end up typing:
"Don't say you're sorry for breaking every inch of my heart"

You fall and break your arm, you scream:
SHIT OW SHIT SHIT SHIT OH MY GOD SHIT!

What does your ex think about you?
I'll tell you when I have one, eh?

You should get a bumper sticker that says:
I love the JoBros.

While high, you like to scream:
"Salt is in my blood!"

What do you say when you come home after a long trip?
"Ohhhh, I wanna go back!"

You friend says she's got tickets to see your favourite band in concert, you say?
Luuuuckyyyyyyyyy!

What were your brother/sister's first words?
Dada(?)

If you could make up a new country, part of your national anthem would be:
"Worlds are spinning round
Theres no time for slowing down
So wont you take a breath
Just take a breath
People change and promises are broken
Clouds can move and skies will be wide open
So dont forget to take a breath" Definitely.

Your mom tells you shes pregnant what would you say?
Why so irresponsible, huh!

A good quote to put on your bedroom door would be:
"Knock and I'll come out"

Someone asks you what you're doing, and you reply with:
"Thinking."

Why do you spend so much time on the internet?
Its kinda relaxing.

Your little cousin just won't stop bugging you, so you turn to him/her and shout:
"Nigel!" (I would never shout at my little cousin, btw)

Last night, you had trouble going to sleep because these words kept going through your mind:
Annoying annoying annoying.

What does your grandmother's secret tattoo say?
My grandmother doesn't have a tattoo.

You'd be embarrassed if your dad started randomly singing this:
"Don't say you're sorry for breaking every inch of my heart"

Why is it that your crush isnt you boyfriend/girlfriend?
Cos I don't wanna be his girlfriend? HA!

The coolest tagline for a movie would be:
Don't get mad, get even.

You're feeling like shit, and a friend asks you what's wrong, so you turn to him/her and say:
(smiles) "You really don't want to know"

92: God bless the broken road

2009-06-21T07:18:00.000-07:00

So, I have been thinking about what I said last night, on the way home from dance. I thought maybe I should take it back. But you know what? Even though I know its wrong, it needed to get out of my system. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a turning point worthy, suddenly-see-the-light moment. I stand by what I said, 100%.

I seriously think its a time for change. I've been in web since I was 12. I'm 15 now. Goodness, just writing that makes me feel all juvenile. But I really can't stay. Well, not can't. My stoic endurance is slowly but surely wearing out. I really don't want to. I don't want to put up with... Things that just wear me down. I'm getting really sick of gritting my teeth, holding my tongue, rolling my eyes. I'm so sick of doing all of it. The secrets, paranoia. No doubt, web is a good ministry, and I will love it, forever and always. I did grow. But then slowly, I think something went wrong. It grew and festered and I was and am just so confused. After youth sunday, I'm on a hiatus from web. I'll miss everyone, terribly. But you know what? I really miss me.

I don't know if I'm doing the "right" thing. "If you don't try, you'll only wonder why." I'm listening to some stuff now. And all I can think of is how sometimes in web, I would just cry, and cry, and cry. After sermon, during worship, outside the main sanctuary.

Too much effort, definitely.

91: take a breath

2009-06-20T09:49:00.000-07:00

I am appalled. So, so appalled.

I don't care who reads this. Screw censorship.

In the car on the way home from web today, I said "After youth sunday, I may or may not go back to web." What I really meant to say was, "After youth sunday, I'm not going back to web." I just didn't want to be held accountable for what I said. And because I hate it when people use what I say against me.

Where can I even begin to start penning down everything I hate about it now. At the top of my list will be the people who grumbled and complained, and had the friggin audacity to say, "That's not true" to Matt. One word girl: Respect. Second on my list will be... Some people who I thought were my friends. I guess not. People change, all too soon. You know what? DO NOT even bother to justfy your actions. You wanna know why? Because I don't really want to know. I hate hypocrites. When ever your name is mentioned, I seriously shudder. I'm going to forget about you now. If you don't want to be bothered with me, go get caught up with your melodramatic life, why don't you? Go. Third would be the group of people whom I had thought were nice, whom I had given a chance. If she were there, you wouldn't have behaved as such. You wanna bet? You were the ones who told me that something was wrong within. And if you behave like that, seriously, I wonder why. Since when were things like that? People placed haphazardly, for convenience's sake. I tried seeing it in another light. I really did. Fourth would be sitting on the floor for service. I don't get it. Seriously, I don't. Maybe back then, it was a way of being a good servant or something, a good disciple of Christ. Fifth would be living in the past. Frankly I don't think people ever forget. Things are just so deeply etched in our minds. Its no fault, but you gotta admit, its tiring to have to deal with. Sixth would be having to choke time out to travel across the island, 21 km of it, in all its glory, on a bus, every Saturday afternoon/evening. What I go to is to my friends, God. Yes. But also to drama. I'm like basically going at 60km/h towards something that I hate and love.

I don't apologize for ranting. You were in the wrong place at the wrong time.

Gnight.

90: GSS!

2009-06-18T01:50:00.000-07:00

GSS! says:
nope
just do whatever
and abt the thursday thing
howwww
i cant make it on thurs cos i have training
Le Yi says:
sr
*er
GSS! says:
should i pon?
Le Yi says:
ok
GSS! says:
or can i like
stalk you
Le Yi says:
no lah
haha
GSS! says:
:P

89: keep the faith

2009-06-16T07:27:00.000-07:00

I caught Hannah Montana the movie today w Hannah and her friends ^^ Bawled my eyes out when she sang The Climb. Even though I'd heard it before. I absolutely loved it. Lucas Till!!! :P

Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - The Climb lyrics

Now you can bawl your eyes out, too!

Anyhoos. I woke up really early this morning. No one sent me to school so I went by myself. Reached at like 730, went back out of school to get lo mai kai! Started training, ended training. Went to PS. There was this ex-convict campaign going on with an ex-convict talking too quickly for comprehension, asking for too much money, making me feel too guilty. And I don't like people like that. So I didn't donate, duh. Walked around, watched movie, blah blahblahhhhhh!

Went to the arcade, and I got freakin chased out! Like, so damn rudely. Some aunty smacked my bag so hard and said, "Hello, school! Out!" I just gave her my blur/amused look and went out. She crushed my boots and glove. Annoying shit.

Went all around in search for an open Gelare, THERE WAS NONE. Went to Far East and Taka. Everytime I stepped into a mall I would have to put on my jacket. I felt like Hannah Montana!

Went to GWC for dinner, Pepper Lunch-ed! Love, love, love!

I seriously gots to go shippings!

Gnight peeps ^^

88: Sunset

2009-06-14T04:07:00.000-07:00

Damn LSCEP. I shall wait for the sun to set before starting my interface. I shall tell you about my day. Its going to be dark in approximately 15 mintues, I predict.

So I woke up at 8. And I can't remember what I did except for watching tv all morning. Well, till 1130 anyways. Haha the Rachael Ray show is vvvvv entertaining! A square meal on a round plate! We'll see ya when we see ya. I mean, who says these things? Okay, back to my tv morning. I watched TOY STORY 2!!!!!! Woody's so cute! Buzz too! I love the green dinosaur. "How do you spell FBI?" LOL!

I zoomed to church, had lunch, dance, and came home. How disapointing, the events of my day only took like 3 minutes to type out. Very well then, I shall tell you about yesterday.

I didn't build up quite enough angst/stamina to run in the morning. For most part I walked/jogged sloooooowly. I had breakfast. I think. Once again, I can't remember doing anything but watching tv in the morning. Tsktsk. Went for WG and WEB. Came home. Web was really strange. I miss having sermons. WG was. SO. (I don't know what.) It was so wg-y. HAHAHA. Dinner was so strange. The fishball noodle aunty gave me pork w my noodles. Thaddeus kidnapped my wallet. I traded meals w Ethel. HAHAHAHA.

Okay, and now here's the part everyone hates in blog posts, because you can't help but be paranoid when you read what you're about to read. But you know what? I'm going to say it anyways. Yup, that's what I'm going to do.

So. I can't tell if you're pissed or not, but I know you are not talking to me, and are very studiously ignoring me. Know what? I'm perfectly fine with that, because maybe what I said made you sad/angry. What was written in the post wasn't all about you, just so you know. And I am not going to pursue this matter any further, because its just going to escalate, and will eventually be blown outta proportion. I won't write down anything else I think about you, because it all may/may not be proven wrong. As I said, I've learnt not to judge.

The sun still hasn't set.

87: breaking the magician's code

2009-06-11T05:29:00.000-07:00

Do everything
Without complaining
Do everything
Without arguing

Then we'll become
Blameless and pure
Children of God

I still remember watching a video, when I was young. Young and oh, so fascinated. It was a video, of a teenage boy and girl arguing about who will clear the mess of a broken vase. Who will vacuum the floor. And in the end, they bake cookies, and instead of going rollerblading and skateboarding, they gave the cookies to an elderly neighbor.

Yknow, what happened to that? Seriously. Back in the day, when we did nice things. When gentlemen stood up to greet a lady.

You've known someone, and realize that they've changed. Way, way beyond recognition.

Why are people loving God conditionally? Quote, I'll only go if someone "speical" goes, unquote. Do you love God? Do you? How can you tell me that you're going to start training, and then say that your A Math teacher will drain you out/give you a headache and you'll be exhausted, so won't be going for CH? Back in the day, when loving God was to the gain of His kingdom, not us.

Aaaaaanyways.

I'm watching Oprah now. A 12 year old karate world champ. He is such a gentleman. He replies Oprah with a "Yes, ma'am" or "No, ma'am". He's so humble, but not in a I'm-better-than-you-cos-I'm-humble way, so genuine. You can totally tell that he loves doing what he does. His enthusiasm and the way his face lights up when he talks is just... You should see it. His name's Simon Weaver, I think.

See, guys need to be more like that.

86: love

2009-06-11T01:51:00.000-07:00

The most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone.

Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete.

This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa.

It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them.

Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life:

That word is love.

urbandictionary.com

85: why i love the holidays

2009-06-09T19:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was frickin funnn! First, I had training. Training's becoming less and less of a pain hmmmm (: We had a game, which was really awesomeeeee ^^ So sad I had to leave in the middle of the game though. LOL, I owe my team seoul garden? HAHA.

Managed to find WG at ECP easily enough. I was there for like 3 minutes and a frisbee that Tzung Ern threw hit my head :O LOL it was quite funny actually. Haaaaaaa! Anyhoos, we had lunch in the sweltering heat!

Oooooh! HA! Oh, shit!---------> So classic.

LOL :D We played Ultimate Frisbee after lunch. It rocked hahahah! Tzung Ern's team had like 2 people more but in the end, the team with the uh, lesser people(?) WON! 6-nil LOL :P Viola got injured, so we went to Vanessa's at ard 3+. The boys, being so, so macho, decided to climb the 22 storeys. :\ I'm just speechless. Boys... LOL.

Eventful day. I gotta go tag some photos now bb!

84: Sunday School Musical

2009-06-07T08:04:00.000-07:00

So. I almost had a perfect day today. Right now, I think the only thing working in my favor is my tablet battery.

Woke up this morning, planned to go run BUT THEN I was so frickin tired, so I just went back to sleep. Got woken up eventually. Showered, changed, ate. Went for Ah Mai Gu Gu's baptizm. I like her church! Its quite cool, even though its all in Chinese. You can really see the people united and caring and I don't know if its just the old folks or whatever, but I've not seen that in a long, long time.

Went to BPJ for dance. Had a lunch of fishballs and hashbrown. :\ I gotta stop stop stop eating fried food! ):< Dance was great. I taught Joy! Haha, I don't even know if I'm qualified to do that, but we both turned out dancing okay heeeeeee :D Yknow, I love dance. If anything, it challenges me. Who'd you rather glorify: Yourself, your friends, or God? Seriously. Lessons to learn!

After dance, went to TBP to walk around while the parents had a meeting. Got SO BORED :O Spent so much $$$ tsktsk. Went home to collect Seth and Hannah and Divina, had dinner at Tiantian w family to celebrate Ah Mai Gu Gu's baptizm.

Went home, watched Sunday School Musical.

Being pissed off now, gnight.

83: webcamming

2009-06-04T20:07:00.000-07:00

I look scary HAHAH.

82: Hey Summer!

2009-06-02T21:09:00.000-07:00

Under 16 you're anorexic, or close to it.
17-50 you're normal.
51 or over sorry you're a big, fat, fatty.

You have eaten or drank this week,

[X] water.
[ ] orange juice.
[X] milk.
[ ] soda
[ ] beer.
[ ] champagne.
[ ] any other alcohol.
[ ] v8.
[ ] raspberry tea.
[ ] grape juice.
[ ] cranberry juice.
[ ] apple juice.
[ ] capri sun.
[ ] hi-c.
[X] chocolate milk.
[ ] strawberry milk.
[ ] coffee.
[ ] lemonade.
Total: 3

[ ] pizza.
[ ] tacos.
[ ] burritos
[X] rice.
[ ] beans.
[ ] fries.
[ ] lays.
[ ] baked lays.
[ ] burger king.
[ ] mcdonald's.
[ ] wendy's.
[ ] checkers.
[X] ham.
[X] cheese.
[ ] hot dog/corn dog.
[X] chicken.
[ ] turkey.
[ ] beef.
total: 4

[ ] rice/soy cakes.
[ ] chocolate cake.
[ ] vanilla cake.
[X] other kind of cake
[ ] banana.
[ ] strawberries.
[ ] grapes.
[ ] chocolate ice cream.
[ ] vanilla ice cream.
[ ] strawberry ice cream
[ ] another kind of ice cream.
[ ] spaghetti.
[ ] spagettios.
[ ] fetuccini.
[ ] another kind of pasta.
total: 1

[ ] sushi.
[X] shrimp.
[ ] lobster.
[ ] crab.
[ ] cheeseburger/burger.
[X] cookies
[X] pork.
[ ] snack cakes.
[ ] popcorn.
[X] noodles.
[ ] cereal.
[X] crackers.
[X] bread
[ ] marshmallows.
[ ] oats.
[ ] grits.
total: 6

[ ] peanut butter.
[ ] peanuts.
[ ] sunflower seeds.
[ ] nuts.
[ ] popsicles.
[ ] lettuce.
[x] eggs.
[ ] bacon.
[ ] poptarts.
[ ] doritos.
[ ] fried chicken.
total: 1

[ ] pudding.
[ ] cheesecake.
[ ] hershey's chocolate.
[ ] granola bar.
[ ] mango.
[ ] pineapple.
[ ] peach.
[ ] chicken sandwich.
[ ] baked potato.
[x] other fruit
TOTAL: 2

ALTOGETHER: 17

Believe me, this quiz is NOT proportionate to my size HAHA. :P

81: Separators

2009-06-02T05:11:00.000-07:00

:\ Today was exhausting.

Woke up at 6, decided not to bathe before training(I was so stupid to PLAN a bath before getting all sweaty and muddy), so I went back to sleep and re-woke up at 6.45. Went for training, I think I'm starting to improve!!! :D After training, I was HUNGRY and ti-red, and of course, Mummy had to take so long to come. We swung by Bt Batok for Popo, then to St Margs for Hannah, then home. We finally ate at like 2.30. It was fun. Sotongs are like BOMBS on hotplates. Beware, seriously. Had dental, and dental again. HAHA, yup, its true, you better believe it. I got separators in today!

):< Braces/Bonding/Wdv on Thursday!

Yay yay yay HAHAHA

Bye loves!

80: its the holidays!

2009-05-31T20:09:00.000-07:00

Oh joy.

Enough is enough. Have you had enough of saying a little too much, a little too loudly? Have you had enough of loving each other? Cos arguing every day sure is the best way of showing it, right? Tell me, how do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Have you forgotten? Choose a good reputation over great riches, for being help in high esteem is better than having silver or gold. Yeah, maybe you have.

What is this?

79: against my will

2009-05-30T22:56:00.001-07:00

"All you need is North Korea to launch a missile in Singapore, see what happens."

Well. All you need is to see what happens when you keep this up much longer.

I hate being forced to do things I don't want to.

78: Forgiveness

2009-05-30T08:45:00.001-07:00

Thank you for this love Lord
Thank you for the nail pierced hands
Washed me in your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

I'm so happy Daddy made me go to WEB tonight. Forgiveness. Hurting people, being hurt. When Matt was closing the sermon, the tears kept collecting. Family, school, WEB.

"Let's bow our heads and pray." We had ministry time. Something that's been a problem for almost 4 years exactly was resolved. Ethel prayed for us, and Kim too.

"Eunice, can I ask for your forgiveness?" Prayed, thought, was. Went to another person whom I have wanted to talk to for a very long time.

"I haven't been very nice to you. Can I ask for your forgiveness?" Yes, I've been hurt. But yknow, I'd hurt others too. I didn't have the humility to go up to face that person. So self-centered, so "I" loving. God, thank you.

God,
I'm so sorry for the times I thought the Christian life was about me. I'm so sorry for the times when I felt that I had to put others down to make myself feel good. I'm sorry for forsaking You the past few months. I'm sorry for making empty promises. I'm sorry for not being able to forgive the people who hurt me in my old school. I'm sorry for not being humble enough to admit to myself, to You, to others, that I screwed up.

I'm angry and sad and vengeful.

God, I'm so sorry.

77: Night at the Museum 2

2009-05-29T02:48:00.000-07:00

Oooooh! The Jonas Brothers were in the show! It was so good! It was funny and everything. ^^

So, Friday nights. I've got Congruency and Similarity tuition homework to do. I'm quite tired now. I feel damn fat! Well. Especially, anyways. I had my favourite food during recess today, went to vivo, had chawamushi along the way. At GV I had nachos and cheese!, coke and sweet popcorn, and I bought bubbletea before coming home. I swear, I am going to go on a bubbletea fast. I'm going running tmr morn. I'm gna get new trainers in the Spore sale. My old ones are o.o already. I'm gna have a good time during this holiday. Book reviews on ALL-TIME favourite books for homework = HAPPY EUNICE! :D

I'm quite looking forward to training yknow (: There's been a shoulder injury bug spreading to all softballers lately, tsk! My arms are almost paralyzed. 3 words. Fear the ball. And fear counterpain even more. It buuuuuuurns! I put like, waaaay too much on my shoulder last night BY ACCIDENT while watching Unfabulous last night and I was like writhing on the sofa. Haaaa, lucky everyone was either asleep or out then. Turns out, all that was needed was a hot water bottle. Sigh, Eunice.

I'm going to watch teevee and do my Congruency and Similarity ws. No wait I'll see if I can watch Dark Knight first.

^^ Bye loves! Happy holidays!

76: I was not tagged.

2009-05-28T20:45:00.000-07:00

1.How far away is the last person you kissed?
Far.

2.Has someone ever told you they would be with you forever?
Nope. Not that I can rmb.

3.Last person you were in the car with?
My daddy and Hannah

4.Any plans for tomorow?
Tuition, beg momma for moneeeeeeyyy and get my CDs and books!

5.How long does it take for you to take a shower?
15-20 mins ahahaha

6.When is your birthday?
NINTH AUGUST NINETEEN NINETY-FOUR. Yeah, that's right, I CAN SPELL.

7.Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
Mhmm (:

8.Did you kiss anyone on Friday?
Seth. I kiss Seth everyday.

9.Ever thrown up in public?
Yeah.

10.What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
Movie!

11.Who was the last person you talked to?
Natasha

12.What is the WORST subject they teach at school?
Its a tie btw LSCEP and Art

13.Have you seen anyone lately that you don't get along with?
Mhm

14.What is your favorite color shirt to wear?
White!

15.Have you ever been in a car accident?
In my dreams yeah

16.Whats the closest thing to you that's green?
My teddy bear sticker

17.Where would you like to be right now?
AT VIVO. I'm wasting my bloooody time in school. Quote, I hate cleaning and I hate Green Day, unquote. ):<

18.Write down some lyrics to the song your listening to;
All these lies.... Daughtry's lyrics are hard to pick apart yknow.

19.How many dogs do you have?
-.- One.

20.Is anything bugging you right now?
My arm and thigh and neck.

21.How is life going for you right now?
Wonderful^^

22.Is there someone you care about more than yourself?
Ehhh. Idk.

23.What made you laugh today?
HAHA Sheenice.

24.What was the last movie you watched?
DARK KNIGHT.

25.What's the last conversation you had about?
About green towels vs green teddybear stickers.

26.What were you doing at 7:00 this morning?
In class/walking to class.

27.Do you like your hair long or short?
Long!

28.Do you want to see somebody right now?
Kris Allen.

29.Do you like the rain?
Mhmm

30. Do you think you'll have a Valentine this year?
Yes(Don't believe me)

31.The last person you kissed needs you at 2 AM, would you go?
NO. Daddy/Mummy will be awake.

32.Would you honestly say you'd risk your life for someone else?
... Touche.

33.Honestly, if you could go back 3 months and change something would you?
Nope.

34.How do you feel about girls smoking?
They should not. They should play softball and get hit by the not-soft machine balls.

34.Could you see yourself with someone forever?
Yes. Kris Allen. Rmb, people, there are no boundaries!

35.What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
Last day of Semester 1!!!!!

36.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months or more?
Ah-yuh.

37.Do you forgive or forget?
No. Never. I hold evil grudges.

38.Do you trust people?
Depends who you are.

39.What are you not looking forward to?
Cleaning.

40. Do you get mad easily?
Mmmmm, no.

41.Has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
Yup.

42.Do you have strange dreams?
I had a dream that Andrea committed suicide.

43.Ever licked someone’s cheek or forehead?
HA. Gross.

44.Last time you fell asleep in someone’s arms?
I dunno.

45. When did you last throw up?
Last year. Hahaha

46.What do you have on you at all times?
Fingernails.

47.Would you go out in public without getting dressed up or put together?
Yes.

48.Do you like fruity or minty gum?
I. Hate. Gum.

49. Favorite musician or group?
KRIS ALLEN KRIS ALLEN KRIS ALLEN, Daughtry, JoBros, MileyC, DemiL, Coldplay, Carrie Underwood, KellyC...

50. Favorite film of all time?
Mmmmm.... 17 Again? Hotness!

51. Favorite computer game?
SIMS2

52. First album you ever went and bought with your own money?
:P I shop w my mommaaaaaaa

53. Think back five months ago, were you single?
Yes.

54. Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
Yeah.

55. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
Yeah.

56. Last thing you bought?
Fishcake hahahaha

57. Are you a jealous person?
Yes very very very.

58. Does it take a lot to make you cry?
Nope.

59. Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to?
Tsk! Scandalous ah. Okay, seriously though. Yes.

60. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Mhmm

61. Do you like to cuddle/snuggle?
Yes Seth hugs very cute!

62. Is there anybody you wish you could be spending time with right now?
My friends from church ):

63. What does the sixteenth text in your inbox say?
I can't take out my phone. I think its smth from Jerome?

64. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
No.

65. Is your life anything like it was a year ago?
No.

66. This time last year, can you remember who you liked?
:D HAHAHAHAAH

67. You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water.

68. Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Well. No. I live life with no regrets (:

69. What is the last thing you said out loud?
"Not this one"

70. When was the last time you cried?
Saturday

71. Do you have friends you can tell stuff to and you're sure they won't tell?
Yup. I hope so.

72. What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
Talk to God.

73. What can't you wait for?
School to restart ):

74. Have you ever told anyone you would marry them?
......?

75. What's the worst way to say "i love you"?
While coaxing the other party.

76. Seven days from now will you be in a relationship?
Yes.

77. Are you mad about anything?
No.

78. What is the last thing you got in trouble for with your parents?
Ehh I don't really get into trouble with anybody...

79. Are you mean?
No

80. Is Jesus alive now?
Yeah

81. Has a boy/girl called you babe or baby in the past two days?
Noooo.

82. Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
Yes, cos I'll start sneezing.

83. Do you have anything that belongs to a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Yup

84. Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Yup

85. How long do you think you will live?
I don't know.

86. Does it bother you when people respond with one word?
In conversations, yes.

87. Do you believe once a cheater, always a cheater?
Depends.

88. Who disgusts you?
A lot of things.

89. Name one thing people think about you that's not true
I don't know. I'm no good at reading people.

90. What would you do if 1 of your friends turned gay?
Gays are people too. I'll treat that person normally.

91. Is your hair naturally curly or straight?
Waaaaavy

92. Do you drink tea?
Bubble!

93. How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
They're messy.

94. Do you currently have feelings for anybody?
Hehhhhhh :P

95. Have you ever stripped for money?
Scandalous!

96. Is the answer ...
Okay?

97. Ever kissed someone with the letters C, A, S, D, T, or J as their first initial?
Seth ^^

98. Two days from now, where will you be?
Home.

99. Do you think you are a good person?
Well. On the outside, yes.

75: Heartless

2009-05-27T21:08:00.000-07:00

[Chorus]
In the night, i hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told.
somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul.
to a man so heartless..
how could you be so heartless? oh.. how could you be so heartless.

[Verse 1]
How could you be so, cold as the winter wind when it breeze yo.
just remember that you talkin' to me though.
you know need to watch the way you talkin' to me yo. i mean after all the things that we've been through.
i mean after all the things we got into.
hey yo, i know of some things that you aint told me.
hey yo, i did some things but that's the old me.
and now you wanna get me back and you goin' show me.
so you walk around like you don't know me.
you got a new friend, well i got homies.
but in the end it's still so lonely.

[Chorus]
In the night, i hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told.
somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul.
to a man so heartless..
how could you be so heartless? oh.. how could you be so heartless.

[Verse 2]
How could be so Dr. Evil, you bringin' out the side of me that i dont know..
i decided we weren't goin' speak so.
why we up 3 A.M. on the phone.
why does he be so mad at me fo'.
homie i don't know, he's hot and cold.
i wont stop, i wont mess my groove up
cause i already know how this thing go.
YOU RUN AND TELL YOUR FRIENDS THAT YOU LEAVING ME
they say that they don't see what you see in me.
you wait a couple months then you gon' see.
you'll never find nobody better than me.

[Chorus]
In the night, i hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told.
somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul.
to a man so heartless..
how could you be so heartless? oh.. how could you be so heartless.

[Verse 3]
Talkin', talkin', talkin', talk
baby lets just knock it off
they don't know what we been through
they don't know 'bout me and you
so i got something new to see
and you just gon' keep hatin' me
and we just gon' be enemies
i know you cant believe
i could just leave it wrong
and you cant make it right
im gon' take off tonight
into the night..

[Chorus]
In the night, i hear 'em talk,
the coldest story ever told.
somewhere far along this road, she lost her soul.
to a man so heartless..
how could you be so heartless? oh.. how could you be so heartless.

♫♥♫♥
Sing it to me!

-

Oh, the LSCEP musings. ^^

74: tsk!

2009-05-27T20:49:00.000-07:00

I really hate LSCEP. It is a waste of time, money, electricity, battery and greatly hinders work productivity.

TSK!

73: kris allen ii

2009-05-27T01:13:00.001-07:00

♥♫♥♫
Sing it to me!

72: Kris Allen

2009-05-26T21:42:00.000-07:00

Kris Allen you made me cry! ):

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever
When you feel you've lost your way

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, (whether)weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don't know where the future's heading
But nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, (whether)weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule 'cause there's nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain, (whether)weather the hurricanes
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

71: 17.52

2009-05-24T18:54:00.000-07:00

I PASSED MY 2.4 WOOOOOOHOOOOOO!

Louise is gna lend me her sims CDs so I can download and PLAYYY!

Yknow, this week is starting off very, very, VERY well.

^^

70: Parakeets and Lizards

2009-05-24T05:52:00.000-07:00

I had a good day today. Today, I love web people. Today. I had a mellow fun with Sarah, Jerome, Jian Hao and some others. (: Dance was cool! I had no idea the bollywood dance was that hard.

HAHA. anyways. I'm running my 2.4 & having my stitches removed tmr. I shall stay positive. And watch The Secret Life.

Yayyyyyy!

69: Let's fall in Love!

2009-05-22T23:20:00.000-07:00

Aww. The Secret Life of the American Teenager is so sweet!

Gotta love Ben. Ben and Amy forever.

Awwwwwwww....

Great, now I dont wanna do my comprehension.

Joyyy

68: manly

2009-05-21T18:18:00.000-07:00

Shit I feel like shit.

The stitches are driving me crazy, it hurts it hurts it hurts. I'm hungry and I don't want to do my freaking comprehension, I just want to watch The Secret Life of the American Teenager.

I want to eat my painkillers. but I can only eat the next one in like 4 hours.

And this is exactly why I DO NOT want to get pregnant. I think I'll die.

BYE. GAH.

67: Falling in Love...

2009-05-21T05:56:00.000-07:00

My cheek is swollen and bruised. I look like I got clocked.

I assure you, I DID NOT. I just went for surgery. Hahahah, that's not really any better is it.

Anyhoos, I wanna sleep. :\

Today was so damn eventful.

66: Golly Gee

2009-05-20T20:19:00.000-07:00

Oh my jonas.

I shouldn't have gone to school today.

GRRR I AM SO DAMN PISSED.

65: Chinese

2009-05-20T17:47:00.000-07:00

shen mi sheng huo of mei guo nian qing ren (The Secret Life of the American Teenager) is like, getting stranger and stranger and stranger!

So, in episode 5 right, Ben or Ricky or someone takes Amy out to "study" right, but they went to the park for a picnic of wings, sprite in champagne flutes and fruits. After eating, the dude freaking PROPOSES to the girl.

What?!

64: Gauze

2009-05-20T03:14:00.000-07:00

OH SHIT SHIT SHIT SHIT I AM GOING TO DIE NOW

TODAY IS NOT MY DAY I AM GOING TO TYPE IN CAPS BECAUSE I AM GOING TO DIE SOON.

THE DENTIST EXTRACTED MY TOOTH, BUT THE ROOT CRACKED WHILE COMING OUT, IT GOT STUCK IN MY GUMS! THEN DR YEE TRIED TO PULL IT OUT BUT IT WOULD NOT COME OUT, SO HE CUT MY GUMZZZZZ AND DRILLED LIKE, 3 HOLES IN MY BONE!!!!!!!! AND AFTER THAT THE ROOT WOULDNT COME OUT SO HE HAD TO LIKE STICH IT UP, AND MY GUESS IS I LOST A PINT(OR 2) OF BLOOD.

NOW, IT IS ITCHING. LIKE. CRAZY. AND. I. WANT. TO. DIE. COS. I. DO. NOT. WANT. TO. WAKE. UP. TMR MORNING. AND FEEL THE PAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN.

63: milospiration

2009-05-19T21:32:00.000-07:00

I got back my EL Paper 1. I got the highest in class for it(Yi Shien did too) but like, looking through the paper? I felt so disappointed. I don't know why I got so low for my essay.

I don't know why on this EARTH the examiner kept adding carrots here and there, as if it were a blooooody structured essay. I swear, the carrots pissed me off so much I started crying. And I couldn't stop ): All around, people kept telling me "You did good! I got worse and I'm not crying."

Goals. Personal targets. I didn't meet them. I would seriously want my parents to scold me for the lousy showing, so I'll have an actual reason to like... Ah nvm, point is, I know they're disappointed.

Will my real parents please stand up

62: milo withdrawl

2009-05-19T06:27:00.000-07:00

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
dude!!!!!!

*~*Pain*~* says:
uh huh?

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
my house ran out of milo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
can i go your house drink!
cos i am going crazy!!!!!!!
cold turkey from MILO?!?!?!?!
i
must
get
MILO!

*~*Pain*~* says:
wow
are you ok?

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
no!
i need!
MILO!

*~*Pain*~* says:
LOL
why

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
cos i go crazy without milo

*~*Pain*~* says:
you like mlo?

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
i love love love love love milo!
i want my husband's name to be milo!

*~*Pain*~* says:
you're a bit scary
but....
......................

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
its making me go insane!
oh no!

*~*Pain*~* says:
I LOVE MILO TOO

Milo. Must. Get. Milo! says:
AWESOME!
we should make a fcebook
page, yknow?
HAHAHAHA
crazy about milo

61: Oh My Jonas!

2009-05-18T21:44:00.000-07:00

My L1R5 is 17.

Do the math, and you'll find that my English grades are less than ideal. I can't believe I scored so low for essay! After everything, I seriously, seriously, with all of my heart, expected a 25. On the flip side, I didn't expect to score so high for letter writing. So. Gah, why is it that my expectations are so... Unattainable, but the things I'd expect not to get, fall right into my lap.

I didn't expect to score so high for History, Literature and Chinese.

I didn't expect to score so low for English, Math and Science.

This. Is. Frustrating. The things that I am "good" at are just not not NOT things that I want to pursue. But the things I'm "bad" at, somehow, are things I pinned my hopes on.

Well. If there's something I've learnt, its to not take things for face value. Good and bad is always relative. Sure, I'm not a top student anymore, but I did pretty well compared to some others.

Right, like that's going to make things okay.

60: Hey Mummy!

2009-05-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

Yeah, perfect. So when I think I'm having the perfect day, things end up like this.

Go ahead, rain on my parade.

59: La la land

2009-05-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

Well.

I woke up today filled with dread. I went to school, heard the plans for the day.

WE WERE GETTING OUT PAPERS BACK. I freaked out. Science, Math, Literature, History, Chinese. Turns out, things weren't as bad as I thought they would be. I didn't top the class for any of the subjects I thought I would(wishful thinking, Eunice, wishful thinking).

Just so you can congratulate me :P

Chinese: 59.2% C5

When the teacher got me to sign my name, I could barely do it, my hands were shaking so much. She started at my signature all funny. Oh well, lucky it was only a relief teacher.

Math: 74% A2

I'm pending 2 more marks. Must get 2 more marks.

Science: 76% A1

It is pretty good, but like compared to the rest of S2... Let's think positively! I think I did pretty well, considering I got B4s in my previous school.

History: 83 and 1/3 % A1

I can clearly remember telling Daddy that I was going to get an A1 for History in the mid years. I can also clearly remember getting so damn pissed off at History that I would throw the textbook around. Like, doing all the SBQs that were just torturous really paid off yknow! I got 20/25 for SBQ. I really had NOT been expecting that. I thought I would get a D7 for History. Good job, good job!

Literature: 62% B4

I thought I would get a D7, but noooooo! I am insanely OVER THE MOON.

Okay, so. I got 2 A1s, 1 A2, 1 B4, 1 C5. I'm pending English's marks. I really really really really hope that my Paper 1 can pull my marks up. Cos Paper 2 was like. Shiiiiit. Honest. I failed. I need an A1! So I can get a L1R5 of 14.

You know, these results, I don't know what to think of them. On one hand, they're not all that fantastic, and on the other hand, I don't know what I'm talking about, because I know I slogged my ass off for close to 50 days to achieve it. When I catch myself being happy, I end up realising that there's nothing much to boast about barely-there A1s, when people who get 80< % feel that they didn't do well.

Maybe, just maybe, it was God. In the beginning of the year, I committed my studies to God, cos I mean, lets face it. I'm not that smart. And throughout my little study boot camp, I told myself never to give up, even though I was getting like, 5/14 for History class tests and all that.

Thanks God. That was pretty awesome, you know? Its great, I'm (reasonably) happy. I'm sorry, for like, everything.

Wow, a whole 4 1/2 months passed me by.

So, what have I achieved?

58: Closet Poet

2009-05-17T15:54:00.000-07:00

"Now, Gillian isn't a high school linebacker... but according to her testimony, it took her five minutes to travel that path. Five minutes plus the length of time it took her to count to a hundred. Does it seem likely that a young girl who was scared, hysterical, and running as fast as possible would move that slowly? Does it seem that from half a football field away, her friends would have heard her struggles?" -Jodi Picoult

No.

57: Poker Face

2009-05-15T22:03:00.000-07:00

I feel strangely calm.

You know what? Even if people say that about me, even if its one of the closest person in my life, its fine by me. My attitude sucks? And I'm self-righteous, I think everyone's is too bitchy, mean, bimbo?

I do not bitch about my closest friends. Maybe I did before, but I really don't anymore.

I hate that in one teenage lifetime, you cannot screw up your social life without it staying with you for forever. Haunting. I hate that there's no room for mistakes, there's no room to fix things up. 11 again? I'll take it. I don't bitch about your friends. Sometimes, I just have lots to get off my chest, and forgive me if I trusted you.

I just don't understand when I talk about my friends problems, that you think I'm bitching about them. I never said that they were "emo-ing". I hate that word, and I'm pretty sure I've not used that on anyone of my friends before.

You know, I liked hanging out with you. I didn't know you saw it as a hindrance to your social life. I didn't know you enjoyed watching the OC better without me.

Thanks for letting me know, I guess.

56: Listen

2009-05-15T06:06:00.000-07:00

I'm sad, I'm depressed, I'm angry. I'm pissed. I'm embarrassed.

I can't take it anymore.

Freaking cut me some damn slack. I'm so goddamn tired of everyone under my skin, telling me I'm not good enough, telling me studies don't mean a thing, saying I have attitude.

You, and you, and you and you and you.

I believe I'm starting to have suicidal tendencies.

55: english

2009-05-14T18:04:00.001-07:00

I feel sick to my stomach.

54: Extraction

2009-05-13T01:14:00.000-07:00

Oooooh, I love Dr Yee! Its so fun extracting teeth you know!

First, you get to the clinic, and take in that horrible, horrible smell of some... Thing. Then you talk to the receptionist, and realize its freakishly cold.

You sit, read, and then, the receptionist comes out and says its your turn!

So, you go in and lay down, and Dr Yee checks your teeth. And then he rubs some strawberry-flavoured cotton(?) on your gums and mouth, and injects you with the anesthesia! Its kind of painful, squeezing your hands together and breathing helps. Heeee (:

Then he'll tell you that the teeth is gna take time to pull out, so I expect like, 10 minutes or so. But its out in like, a minute!

In the meantime, you hear cracking, and feel a ton of pressure and force and the receptionist "supporting".

Ahahaha, I had a good day today.

Bye loves!

53: Save You

2009-05-12T20:24:00.000-07:00

Sweet Lord.

I hate LSCEP. I have no idea what Ms Jean is talking about. Ms Charmaine behind me, champion. How she manages to read Salem Falls w/o Ms Jean knowing is mind boggling.

Yknow, I still remember this room. I took my exam here last year, on the 4th of December. Cool eh? Hahaha.

"Do you understand what I'm saying?"
(silence)

Oh, that was just too funny.

My blood is freezing over. Its so cold!

AAAAAAAH, my LSCEP project is freaking screwed.

52: Untouched

2009-05-12T03:29:00.000-07:00

99 Things You Might Not Know About Me...

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have one on my forehead cos a gate slammed into my head while I was waiting for the school bus when I was 3. (Haha.)

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Posters, pictures, cute post-its and toys!

3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP?
I think I snore. HAA.

4. WHAT TYPE OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
Pop. I like music with interesting beats. HSM/Miley/JoBros/DemiL anything along those lines.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
14 30, 9th Aug 1994. No kidding.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
To be magically fantastic at everything.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
Australia, mate!

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
My diary.

9. HOW TALL ARE YOU?
Ehhh. Tall enough, I guess?

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
YES. Esp in trains and places where I can't see the sun(or moon)light

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes, sometimes.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
IDKKKKK.

13. WHAT'S YOUR WORST FEAR?
Going to hell.

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE PREFERRED SEX?
Dark colors.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
No where.

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
Mmm. Water.

17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
HAHA, how could I choose?!

18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
I'm really full. I wanna eat FRIEZZZZZ.

19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME?
Red/Black/White/Gray

20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH?
No.

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU'VE EVER RECEIVED?
A bear.

22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?
Nope. Haven't had one in years.

23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
I wish.

24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
DOROTHY PERKINS!

25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITY?
The disney ones! I'll be a kid forever. ZAC EFRON. DAVID A.

26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
A doggie! He's getting old.

27. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
Probably.

28. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE SCENT?
I dunno. I'll tell you when I smell it.

29. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED.
14. I like that number. (Assuming I wasn't supposed to say "A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDERD")

30. BLONDS OR BRUNETTES?
Brunettes. Dark colors are more grounding.

31. FAVORITE QUOTE?
I don't remember quotes. They're all kind of cheesy.

32. most hated place
You don't want to know.

33. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE USA?
Never been to the USA.

34. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Insecurity. Fickle-mindedness. Bad judgement.

35. MET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yeah.

36. FIRST JOB?
Being a pain in the ass. :P

37. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
I dont think so...

38. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOUL MATE?
Yeah, I'm inclined to believe that.

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
Getting bubbletea!

40. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Nah.

41. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
My grades. I'm really not that smart though.

42. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES?
I'M GOING TO GET BRACES WOOOOOH!

43. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Ooooh! I want so many things! DVDs & books mostly.

44. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES?
I dont want kids. I think sexual reproduction in human beings is way too complex. :\

45. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Timothy's grandmother.

46. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX?
A lot. But then again, I'm not perfect either...

47. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKED ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL?
Oh! The friends. People in school understand me the best.

48. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE?
Some yellow thing. Haaaa.

49. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Kinda. People like it.

50. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
CHICKEN! I love chicken.

51. ANY BAD HABITS?
Keeping to myself/Too trusting.

52. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON?
Yup. Very, very.

53. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Nope. I wouldn't.

54. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS?
No. Yuck, it makes me sick.

55. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Well. Yes it does.

56. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I hug my bears. Or I go around telling people I'm "damn pissed".

57. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
2

58. WHAT'S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE?
I WANNA BE RICHHHH!

59. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE MEMORY AS A CHILD?
Oh there are too many. Perhaps in Australia? I loved it there.

60. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Enough.

61. WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID?
I always liked the Teletubbies more, yknow.

62. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Yeah, and no one gets me.

63. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE?
Right now? Neither.

64. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
A kind heart.

65. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Strawberry. I had rosy cheeks when I was younger hehhhhh.

66. IF YOU HAD A SUPER POWER WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Invisibility, telepathy, super-ness.

67. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW?
I dunno. I usually go for movies. But I love Hannah Montana! HAHAHA.

68. WHAT'S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES?
Staying away from them.

69. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Green tea. I love green tea ice cream!

70. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES?
HA, funny.

71. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM?
2! My laptop, and my sister's as well.

72. PLANS FOR TONIGHT?
PBL research. :\ Finn on the Fly.

73. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER?
Australia. Australia, Australia, Australia.

74. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
I'm not going to tag anyone.

75. LAST THING YOU ATE?
PEARLS.

76. LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Oreo chocolate!

77. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Daddy.

78. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
The way they look.

79. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME?
Watch movies, read, sleep. TV!

80. FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
People.

81. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR?
Winter.

82. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY?
Gobstoppers popped into my head.

83. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY HAD A BEST FRIEND?
Yes. Katie in Rehoboth. She always gave me her salami (: I love you Katie!

84. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
Brown. Especially at the top.

85. EYE COLOR?
browny

86. SHOE SIZE?
(Adidas) 7

87. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE?
Subway!!!!!

88. FAVORITE RESTAURANT?
Kobi... something. The one at Jurong Point's really exciting!

89. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yes yes yes!

90. WATCH TV TODAY?
Yes! Alot.

91. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Christmas!

92. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS?
The piano I suck.

93. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT?
Democrat. I think?

94. KISSES OR HUGS?
I love them equally.

95. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationship.

96. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
Bbt!

97. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE?
I dont think so.

98. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
Science Power I. It is NOT a textbook.

99. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE.
Nonexistent.

Bye loves!

51: Not Happy

2009-05-11T05:42:00.000-07:00

You know why I'm so damn pissed at you?

First and foremost, know that its been years. Years that I shove my own pride aside. Years of just putting up with you. Years of hoping that one day, you'll finally care. That one day, you'll finally appreciate the things that people do for you. That you'll say thank you. That you won't lock yourself inside your room.

The final straw was when you asked for my advice, and then you told me to shut up. Dearie, the truth hurts. If you didn't want to hear it, why did you ask me in the first place? Go get it from a "guy's point of view" then. Go get it from the million other people you care so much about.

Charity begins at home. Kindness. It starts at home. Generosity, sincerity, courtesy. Patience, love. Why is it so easy for you to take to friends, yet not your own family? Why is it that you just don't see all the effort put in by so many people, so you can sit on your ass all day and surf the net? Why is it that you can be unreasonable, but not anyone else?

I am sick and tired of dealing with your attitude. Frankly, it stinks. I'm sick and tired of mending what you broke. When you brush them off and walk away, you miss so much. You don't see the hurt in their eyes, did you know that?

"Where's Hannah?"
"I don't know. And frankly, I don't care."

Fine, go across the ocean and be far, far away from us.

I'll stand at the departure gates and joyfully bid goodbye.

50: 19 Minutes

2009-05-10T21:11:00.000-07:00

Math's tomorrow. Here's the plan.

1. Do rev ws 3
2. Run through Math MYE papers of 07 and 08
3. Run through sec1 work
4. Pray hard that I won't be careless/anxious

I finally figured what's making me all sad and depressed. Things just aren't going so well at home.

Preoccupations, miscomunications. Seth and the maid and all.

Hostility, co-existence, not harmony.

Since when did I turn into a CME handout?

Jeeeeez.

2009-05-09T22:51:00.000-07:00

49: I Just Wanna Live

There's training on Tuesday.

(Stop tearing me apart!)

2009-05-09T22:22:00.000-07:00

48: Hold On

There's always light at the end of the tunnel. Or is there?

People've been telling me I look emo. That I look sad, angry, stressed. Maybe I am. It seems that every single day I wake up, I'm on the right side of bed, wrong side of life.

I keep getting nightmares about my results. That I got 17/30 for my Act of Kindness essay. That I used every vocabulary word wrongly. I keep thinking that I'll get 43% for English. I keep thinking that I'll get a C for History and Chinese. A D7 for Lit.

I don't know. I've wanted to say this for a really long time. I don't really know if its right. Last night when I walked into WEB a gigantic grin spread across my face. As I left, all I could think was: I need time alone. Web isn't what it used to be. I don't know if its for the better or for worse. I feel that we've become worse people. That the Word of God isn't all what it seems.

Why is there no straight answer on this earth? Why is there absolutely no definite SOMETHING?

"Excuse me," Alex said again, words that were no longer polite discourse, but a plea for absolution.
-19 Minutes, Jodi Picoult.

2009-05-09T00:43:00.000-07:00

47: Math is Not Cool

OH MY GODDD.

I am SO PISSED with math! Like, whenever I finish going through a question and think I know how to do a question, it pops up somewhere else like, half an hour later and I don't bloody know how to it.

I don't know what to do. Doing practices is not proving to be helpful. Unless I seriously go BOKNERS and do every single question so as to be "fully" prepared for the damn exam on Tuesday.

Post exam stress. I need time to recover.

(Should I go for web tonightttttt?)

ARGH I AM SO DAMN PISSED.

2009-05-08T19:58:00.000-07:00

46: You Got Boob'd!

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090508/tts-britain-clothing-offbeat-cac1e9b.html

OMG LOL

2009-05-07T23:37:00.000-07:00

45: 5 down 1 to go

LIT IS OVER. And Mingfong Ho should stop writing books, for the sanity of the next generation. Seriously. It drove me NUTZZZ. But. The essay question on the novel was alright. The unseen poem was the KILLER. I didn't even get it. Either they were talking about dancers or socialites, or prostitutes. :\ Really. And Math is on TUESDAY. After that, its all sex ed and PBL stuffs. Which I did not read off the board, cos reg5 is ALL THE WAY at the back of the classroom ):< I hate my seat. I want to move back to the front of the classroom with NAT! YAY YAY YAY! And I can start using my HSM pencil case again, seeing as the wretched MYEs will be over soonish!

Things I am looking forward to:
1. Reading!
2. Sleeping!
3. Studying no more than 4 hours a day
4. DANCE DANCE DANCE!
5. Obsessing over hot guys!!!!!!! I LOVE DAVID AAAAAAAA

Things I am NOT looking forward to:
1. Gnome tarts
2. gPods
3. vaita-noers!

LOL I'm just too creative, aren't I

David A's just so cuteeeee!

2009-05-07T00:07:00.000-07:00

44: Note to God

I tried my best. Seems like that may never be good enough.

2009-05-02T08:56:00.000-07:00

43: Piss me off

Today, my day started off with history. From 11 in the frickin morning to THREE IN THE AFTERNOON. then, I did lit in the library, for an hour and a half. then it was time for dinner. and web. and then we came home. and now i am trying to chiong sexual reproduction in human beings.

HUMANS
ARE
SUCH
A
WASTE
OF
MY
LIFE.

2009-05-01T05:41:00.000-07:00

42: Seth

Altogether now: Awwwww....

2009-04-30T08:27:00.000-07:00

41: Archuleta

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we’re grey and old
‘cos I’ve been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I’m lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

when I’m feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know ill always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush

‘Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It’s just too much, just too much

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know

Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Has it ever crossed your mind
When we’re hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?

See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
‘Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever

Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know

Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?

Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
This crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy

Ooooh, I just LOVE David A.

2009-04-29T21:42:00.000-07:00

40: English

Mr Poon: So, how was the paper?

Class: (groans) "bad"/"so hard"/etc

Me: EXCELLENT! :P

I wrote an essay titled "A Small Act of Kindness". I really must thank Mr Faraz and Mr Poon and Melissa De La Cruz. My phrase book, too, obviously. I think I'm going to score for this one. Vocab! Story! Words, words, words. (:

Happy, happy me.

Chinese is the next paper. Optimism!

Bye loves!

2009-04-28T03:50:00.000-07:00

39: Abstinence

"I would never want my little girl to hurt from anything: not a broken arm, or bad dream; a broken heart."

Oh, how I loved 17 Again. I'm in love with Zac Efron.

I'm so damn proud of how far I've come. I'm just too in love with what I'm doing to give up now.

Mid years. Ready or not, here I come!

Bye loves!

2009-04-19T03:24:00.001-07:00

38: You have no idea

You have no idea how much I want to move out of this place. I want to move some place where I can breathe. I want to move some place unstructured, completely spontaneous and free. I want to move some place where I can make mistakes, where I can make a big mess.

Tolerance. Patience. A few years more.

I can do this.

2009-04-17T19:26:00.000-07:00

37: Meaningless

I'm really very, very angry now. I really find it pointless to study History anymore. Doing comprehensions is like talking to a wall. Lit is just. Too stupid for me to be bothered with.

I really dread the exams. Despite all my efforts that past effin month, I still don't think I'll do very well.

I really want to move out of here. I cant breathe anymore

2009-04-17T04:23:00.000-07:00

36: I want to be a kid

Here's what I'd like to do:

1. Sleep when I'm tired and wake up when I've had enough rest
2. Watch Hannah Montana 3 in the weekends
3. Eat at McDonald's on Sundays
4. Make a big mess and be pardoned
5. Memorise the textbook and ace all my tests
6. Run 1.6 instead of 2.4
7. Make mistakes, go uh-oh and have an adult make everything okay
8. Have all the time in the world to do everything I need & want to do
9. Never have to prioritize, because what's important is not what I want
10. Go to church, and WG, and Channel Heaven
11. Have the time & energy to build friendships

2009-04-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

35: Uninspiring

I entered my blog site for the first time in a week, full of inspiration and a runner's high. I read post 34 and lost all inspiration. I can do it! Stalford English tuition is gooood. (: Mrs Ng is coming tmr. Science is going well. If anything, I'm counting on these 3 subjects to carry me through the midyears. Okay I'm going to stop being pessimistic.

*

No scratch that. I want to say something! I'm pretty pissed with a group of people. You know, its pretty evident already that I suck. But however and whichever way you would like to argue it, we're still a team. So the "seasoned" players 5-6 balls all the time, and I get 1-2 or occasionally 3?

"Eunice, give it to Eunice!"
"I gave her already!"

So you're biased. So nagging and attention equates to interest. So when she fails to gain the respect of the team, its your failure, but when I fail to master this, its my failure?

I finally found the reason for my bad mood out of the late. I heard it would be tough. I didn't know it would turn out like this. Its so phsychological, this game; this CCA.

*

I'm all set for informal writing test tmr. Never been more phsyched. SHIT. I just realised that PBL ends at 2.30 and tuition starts at 3.30! Okay. I should be able to get home by then.

I'm excited for tmr. I'm going to sleep soon.

Bye loves!

2009-04-08T20:43:00.000-07:00

34: The Projectionist's Nightmare

For those of you who know the poem, the inference would be that the nightmare was reality(no matter how ironic that sounds). I really don't know why I'm screwing up all my tests. I don't know why I'm suddenly so bad at comprehension. I don't know why I'm suddenly so bad at writing, Chinese, Math. And of course, why I'm suddenly so good at science.

This is such a nightmare, because MYEs are so close. I shan't add in any adjectives, cos no matter how much despair I put into conveying that time is running out, I won't be able to make it stop. At the end of the MYEs, I really don't want to find out that changing schools was just a big mistake and that I should have stayed in my old school, get as many A1s as possible and 3A at the side. I don't want to be shoved into the last class at the end of the year. After working so hard in sec1 to get where I am today, will that be the final result?

Tution, I need private tuition. English, Math, Chinese, History, Lit.

5 out of the 6 examinable subjects for MYE.

I really don't know what to do anymore.

2009-04-08T09:19:00.000-07:00

33: Lyrics

The day the door is closed
The echoes fill your soul
They won't say which way to go
Just trust your heart
To find what you're here for
Open another door
But I'm not sure anymore
It's just so hard

Voices in my head
Tell me they know best
Got me on the edge
They're pushin', pushin', they're pushin'
I know they've got a plan
But the ball's in my hands
This time is man-to-man
I'm drivin', fightin', inside of

(A world that's upside down)
It's spinning faster
What do I do now
Without you?

I don't know where to go
What's the right team
I want my own thing
So bad I'm gonna scream
I can't choose, so confused
What's it all mean
I want my own dream
So bad I'm gonna scream

I'm kicking down the walls
I gotta make them fall
Just break through them all
I'm punchin', crushin', I'm gonna
Fight to find myself
Me, and no one else
Which way, I can't tell
I'm searchin', searchin', can't find a

(Way that I should turn)
I should, to right or left, it...
It's like nothing works
Without you

Courtesy of http://www.lyricskid.com

2009-04-08T03:26:00.000-07:00

32: Stop

I don't want think about what you feel. I don't want to care what you think. I don't want to be bothered with anyone but me. STOP IT. I know its all for my own good, but its just all the pressure that makes me dread it so damn much. Don't turn my words against me, now. Screwed up pressure doesn't make ANYTHING.

Is it really so hard to just support me? Without any trace of smugness or sarcasm?

That's it, I'm going to move to an island where I can live all by myself.

Oh, look what you've done.

2009-04-07T19:36:00.000-07:00

31: SCREAM

ARGH BLOODY HELL SHITZ I HATE DOING THIS.

2009-04-05T02:04:00.000-07:00

30: Combustion of Glucose

Science puts things weirdly, doesn't it? Burning of energy, people, its easier for everyone to understand!

I gots to do a lots of works.

Well. Not that much. Memorize D5, revise compare and contrast, and do D7 notes when I have the time. Mr Teo said they weren't graphical, were got not graphical tell me! My textbook looks like porn ah I tell you!

Anyhoos, I gots to goes.

^^

Bye loves!

PS: iLuvCadetKelly!

2009-04-03T23:22:00.000-07:00

29: History

We, the citizens of Singapore, pledge ourselves as one united people, regardless of race, language or religion, to build a democratic society, based on justice and equality to as to achieve happiness, prosperity and progress for our nation.

Really?

2009-04-01T05:32:00.001-07:00

27: Tears

I seriously think that tears have a more complex composition than just sodium, chlorine, H2O and a little poof. I think they're made up of disappointment, anguish and hopelessness. But I also think they are made up of joy, gratefulness, and blissful revelations. See, so they balance each other right, and a balanced equation is formed. :P Don't laugh at me, I got an A2 for Chemistry ah!

Therefore, tears perfectly describe my day.

I'm still sad, but like. Begin with the end in mind, and end damn well. I can almost see my distinctions.

B)

Bye loves

(PS: My keyboard alphabets are taking turns to malfunction. Irritating shazamzzzz.)

2009-03-31T17:51:00.000-07:00

26: Down The Drain

I couldn't finish the blooooody Lit test. I could, if i had decided to write my conclusion after 3 inferences. But I just had to write that Mrs Norton was a jinx, JINXING my paper. I didn't even finish explaining it. Or analyzing it.

2009-03-30T07:05:00.000-07:00

25: Dara's Delusional Movement

EVERY DAMN THING I HAVE PAINSTAKINGLY TYPED FOR THE LAST TWO HOURS, TEN MINUTES HAS VANISHED FROM MY SCREEN, UNSAVED.

CM IS CURSED.

CURSE YOU STUPID LIT.

2009-03-30T04:32:00.001-07:00

24: Winner Takes It All

Typical. When everyone gets distinctions, you get a C. When everyone does average, you get a B. Seriously. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU. I know! You're INSANE. Repeatedly doing the wrong thing. This definition is by Albert Einstein, BTW.

I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR HY. I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR SC. I'm going to MUG LIKE SHITZ FOR MATH.

You see, I'll get at least 3 distinctions. So unlikely yeah?

I know.

Bye loves

("I don't want to talk, cos it makes me feel sad")

2009-03-29T06:35:00.000-07:00

23: The Climb

My eyes hurt! The one which was hit especially. When I look at stuff, they seem further away/closer. When I enter brightly lit places or roll my eyes it hurts for a bit and there's a bruise forming aldy arrrrgh JEAN!!!

I studied from 9-12 and 1-9.40 today. I'm so friggin proud of myself.

Well another week is ahead. Wish me luck people.

Bye loves!

2009-03-28T00:01:00.000-07:00

22: Bulls' Eye

I got hit by the bloody ball during training today ): There's the stitch mark on my eye lid. No bruise haha thank God.

I havent been posting in a damn long time. Been mugging till 3am the past 3 days. Well. Tues, Wed and Thurs. I've got alotta work to do! But I shall not be emo, because the best prize that life has to offer is the chance to work hard at work worth doing. Did you know? Theodore Rosevelt said that BTW.

Nyeeehehhh. Watching HSM3. I need to memrise alot of shitz for home ec.

OH! And I think I know what I wanna do next year. Double science. Double math. Double Humans. 8. :D

Bye loves

2009-03-26T10:03:00.000-07:00

21: I'll Stand By You

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xstLRWHgD2Q

Lets take a break from HY. I'm so sick of HY. Arrrrrrrh. I'm quite frustrated, yknow. I need to do so much. But then again, this doubles as MYE Rev. Sometimes, I feel that there's just so much for me to do that no matter what I just keep getting slower and slower. No matter how early I stay up, or study, or sacrifice, it won't ever be nearly enough.

Its quite depressing.

God, give me grace to do your will/ In my life, be lifted high.

2009-03-25T19:36:00.001-07:00

20: Super

There's no game today.

Go figure.

2009-03-25T10:07:00.000-07:00

19: Worthy

I really cannot stand it anymore. Clay Marble is simply too depressing. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it. Really, Renee should ask her dad to tell Mingfong Ho to stop writing books.

I'M GNA CRY SHIT! Its 1.13am, and I'm still doing HW.

I think the school's overdoing it.

2009-03-25T03:30:00.000-07:00

18: There Are Better Ways to Kill Me

After I got my bbt today, I told myself that I won't be mad anymore. But I really must get this out of my system. I'm gonna put it on the world wide web.

Firstly, the Chinese test which I got a C for, mummy told me this afternoon that it was O LEVEL STANDARD. Secondly, I feel damn lousy, cos tmr is HY's triple period before the CT tmr, and I will only be there for 1.
Next, Home Ec theory test is on MONDAY, and I havent memorised the shit yet. I have the portfolio to complete plus, I need to practice baking the damn thing. Fourth, Ms Vanitha just set us a whole lot of homework. Character analysis for Jantu and Dara ch 1-9 by FRIDAY. I need to do IC Reflections again, CL vocab, math hol hw corr., edit script by tonight, memorise lines by 7am tmr morning, and do props by friday. The school conveinently took away 1 day from our drama workshop, which means that we have to madly scramble for time to rehearse, do props, memorise lines, study for HY CT, on top of our more than usual hw and

ARGH THERE ARE BETTER WAYS TO KILL ME.

For example, as Natasha asked me:

Which way do you be preferred to be killed?
a. Strangled
b. suffocated by carbon monoxide
c. sexually assulted and then strangled
d. stabbed

Ha-ha.

2009-03-24T23:13:00.000-07:00

17: (It Just Hurts Too Much)

FYI, people, I'm NOT being emotional. Its just that last night, while studying late into the night/early morning, I had a horrible, cursed, headache. Sinuses were retarded. :\ I managed to finish all my work though! So I'm very happy with my new system, you know! Come home, bathe, eat, be retarded for a bit, sleep, then work, and sleep again. Do you know why you should do that? Its actually because every hour you get of sleep before midnight is 2 times as good as every hour of sleep you get from 00 01 hours! :D

Today we did our 2.4km run. I PASSED AGAIN HEY HO I'M HAPPY! Mdm Heng(LOL!!!!!) Mrs Heng said, "18.15! Okay, very good!" What's saddening is, last year, I walked the whole way, and my timing was 21.14. So. Hahaha. Wdv this time I really tried, and so for that I'm extremely proud of me!

I think, that the kind of mentality I had to adopt for the streaming thing. Like. If I got to 3s2b, or 3c1, or 3g1, I won't be sad, I'll only be happy. Cos I know that I'll put in everything I have, and if thats still not enough, then the right thing to do will be to just accept the fact and move on. Cos everything's gonna be alright people!

So, don't stress over grades. Yes they are important, but when you look back at the end of the year, is it more important for you to be able to say, "I got 6. I feel so unaccomplished. ZOMG!" Or would you want to say, "I got 10. But my x-th year of existance has been honoring to God." Hmm? Don't get carried away, too engrossed.

Bye loves!

2009-03-23T03:10:00.000-07:00

16: Burn Baby Burn

This is the life of a sec2 mugger.

430-530: ci yu
530-630: rev d1 and d2
630-730: dindin!
730-830: chi prac paper
830-930: study home ec
930-1030: study hy chap 8 seq
1030-11: chi test corrections (I still canNOT believe I got a C for Chinese)

I'm so sad. I'm frickin procrastinating now, cos I just do NOT want to do d2 rev.

Chemistry sucks. I still dont know what science to take next year, and I'm definately not smart enough to go to triple science, at the rate I'm going so.

Lets just look on the bright side of life, and pretend that I'm gg to be in 3C1 next year.

:D

Bye loves

(edit)

My head is seriously pounding. I've got HY Ch 8. CT is on FRIDAY and I won't be there for a single stinking class, cos the 3 period class is on THURSDAY, 10.30-12.

):

somebody saaaaaave me. Be glad you don't lead a mugg-aaaah's life.

Gnight loves

15: Hooky

2009-03-22T19:42:00.000-07:00

15: Hooky

I hate LSCEP/Art so frickin much.

Adobe be dammed. (Pun fun! ^^)

Bye loves.

14: Friday, Saturday, Sunday

2009-03-22T04:51:00.000-07:00

14: Friday, Saturday, Sunday

Well, I wouldn't really know who to address, since my tag board tells me this site is not frequented. But anyhow.

HI.

Friday was good. I studied in the morning, I can't rmb what else I did HAHAHA.

I went for Channel Heaven Reloaded. I really related to it. We don't fight FOR victory, we fight from victory. Victory is yours when the battle is His, and so, because of the cross, we HAVE IT.

Sometimes, I feel that we are just too attuned to our own "inner-voice", that even when we hear from God, asking us to do smth, we know what to do, but try to judge the situation ourselves. Then we don't do it, cos its too hard, too scary. Too ambitious? But actually we CAN do it, God's in us, victory is within us.

After Channel Heaven, went for supper! Proceeded back to church, where Hannah and Charmaine camwhored/digicammed. Basically they took pictures & made alot of noise :P I was being very hardworking. Mugging away the chinese idioms. Hehh, idioms. ^^

Got home real late. Slept.

Saturday was tiring. Training, where I thought about the being attuned to ourselves thing. I was just too scared to slide to base, even though I did it without the base there. Training was fun! Scrimmage was Saturday Morning Live. :P Got picked up late, lunched, bathed, went to church to study. WG pissed me off. I really miss clarice, really alot, alot alot. Dinner was so funny! I was crazy/sober but drunk. Nyyyeeeh! Service was alright. I didnt take a nap. I was reminded of Jacob Black one too many times, I think. Seriously though, when did he become so biiiiiig and taaaaallllll? His voice sounds low! Hahaha shiit I sound like such a freaky stalker. I told you, I was sober but drunk. Haaaaaa!

Daddy zoomed us home! YAY :D

I had tuition early in the morning. I hate tuition! So early. The topics are pretty irrelevant too. I want one-to-one tuition, or else I DON'T WANT AT ALL ): Ahya, but how to tell mummy daddy lah? After tuition I bought banmian home. BIG mistake. It was so gross and melted-y. Watched CR while doing my Chinese work, the last of it, actually. SO HAPPY! While I was working, Seth ate his poop and started crying.

-.-?

Seeeeth, okay, I really don't understand you. Boys are strange, as I have mentioned before. This just proves my hypothesis. Heeee!

Went to Botanic Gardens. Iluvitthere! I'm gg there sometime soon to walk the whole place! Who wants to come w meeeee?

I'm watching The Pacifier now. Gg to start doing my work.

Bye loves!

2009-03-19T18:34:00.000-07:00

13: Save Me From Myself

Hello world, this is me, can't you see
Hello world can't you see, life's meant to be

Fun for everyone

12: My Ambition

2009-03-19T02:42:00.000-07:00

12: My Ambition

I want to move to Perth when I grow up. Its so gna happen. I love Perth. I love Australia. I'm gonna kidnap Sethie and bring him along! He can go to Rehoboth too. (:

I just spent a shit load of time completing 2/3 of my Math holiday hw. I stumbled upon Eunice Tan's multiply. I wish I could go to school there! Sounds super cool. So many honors classes she's taking. Now why doesn't Spore have that! I want to take honors classes ^^

My eyes are crossed.

I'm super stressed. So much to do now! The end of march holidays means that the MYEs are coming!!!

Sooner than you think.

11: Bleedin'

2009-03-18T22:56:00.000-07:00

11: Bleedin'

Quote: Gynacologists are weird and hav such weird pictures on their comp
Source: TZUNG (ZOMG! I can't believe it)

Today's training was good. I really want to write something here, but its against my better judgement, since this is for the world wide web. Heeeeee :P Anyhow. I had fun. I discovered that the helmet makes funny sounds when you run with it. I MADE IT TO FIRST BASE TODAY! I hit the ball. ZOMG I'M SO HAPPY! Running around catching balls was fun too. Tiring.

I'm going to finish my math HW today. I WILL I WILL I WILL.

Its all in the mind baby, all in the mind.

Bye loves

10: Just So You Know

2009-03-17T22:12:00.001-07:00

10: Just So You Know

1. I don't answer to anyone but God
2. Only God will judge me
3. I'm really tired of trying to care what you think, what you say, what you feel
4. Its not that I don't get it
5. Its that YOU don't
6. I'm going to focus on things which are important, but that's kinda hard, considering everything
7. You might wanna take a step back, because I just may decide to blow up
8. You're wringing me dry here
9. Get out of my life, cos
10. YOU SUCK

LADEDUM I CANT DECIDE ON WHICH MOOD TO BE IN, SO I'LL JUST BE MY FAVOURITE.

numb.

9: The OC Potato

2009-03-17T21:25:00.000-07:00

9: The OC Potato

I'm in a happy mood today. Mummy and Daddy are coming back! HEEHEEE! I just thought that we should all take a break from reading "I don't know what to do" and depressing stuff, hmm? Leaving my worries behind. It feels so good. I'll wait another day to deal with it. Like tomorrow.

So now, I'm going to talk bullshit! Seth won't kiss me! He says I chouchou. ):< CHOUCHOU YOUR HEAD! YOU THEN CHOUCHOU! Okay I sound damn petty now. I'm going to eat my prawn meeeee!

Bye loves

8: Disturbia

2009-03-17T04:57:00.000-07:00

8: Disturbia

Today was a long one. Woke up damn early in the morning, got breakfast after bathing, took a cab to ah ma's house got my skirt, went to school, went for lunch, went for training.

Training.

It wasnt physically tiring, but it was in every other way. Training was supposed to start at 3, but it started at 2. After alighting from the bus, I was so happy, cos I thought that I was so early( it was 2.05). Then when I reached, I found the whole damn team there. I kept thinking, I'll always be one step behind, cos I don't love it as much. And after training, I was thinking of when I was reading 19 minutes in subway when I could have been on the bus, on my way to school. Frustration.

Enough SB talk.

Okay, okay, its okay.

No wonder I find myself not knowing what to do.

I know what to do.

7: Holiday

2009-03-16T00:01:00.000-07:00

You Are An Introvert!

You're not necessarily anti-social, but you do tend to need a lot of alone time.

You tend to think before you talk, which doesn't make you the loudest person in the room.

While you aren't outgoing, you are a good listener - and you tend to be a loyal friend.

And you enjoy your friends as much as any extrovert does, in smaller doses.

You're more of a conversation over dinner type than a party animal... and so are all your friends.

Are You An Extroverted or Introverted Girl?

Okay. Now I had better go write my essay

6: He's Just Not That Into You

2009-03-15T22:38:00.001-07:00

6: He's Just Not That Into You

So, I watched it last night. It was pretty nice hehe, I quite like Gigi.

The theme was interesting, the whole HE'S NOT CALLING ME! stress and what not. Cos seriously, when are people going to realize that guys don't complete girls? Its so strange.

Anyhoo, if the movie gave me anything, it gave me inspiration. I deleted my fb account. Or rather, deactivated.

Drama free. I like it. I woke up at 11.30, watched a movie, had lunch and I'm watching MTV now (:

I will bathe and then start doing my work for the day.

PS: Happy days aren't so happy after all, eh.

5: On the Contrary

2009-03-15T03:16:00.000-07:00

5: On the Contrary

Service was good yesterday. I'm gna gather my thoughts here and try to come to a positive consensus.

Context: Phil 2:5-11

CHRIST-LIKENESS?

Christ-likeness is obeying God's will for me on earth.

HUMILITY

To do that we must have no prerogatives.
We are sinners, and we should be grateful for everything we have.
Humility- The eat humble pie kind and the lowering yourself kind.
Jesus lowered Himself and forsake his prerogatives.

OBEDIENCE

Phil 2:8> God humbled himself to death on a cross.
Luke 22:30-44> God was human. He did not want to die for us. But He did it, because He knew it was God's will.
God did suffer. He did, He did, HE DID.
Pouring life into death- Its very strange, silly even, from a superficial point of view.

EXALTATION

Phil 2:9 >he humbled himself and became obedient to death-- even death on a cross! THEREFORE God exalted him to the highest place
God was lowered and then lifted to the highest place and was given the name that was above all other names.

For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled, and he who humbles himself will be exalted.

4: Let's Review

2009-03-15T02:14:00.000-07:00

4: Let's Review

Work that I need to do by dinner

1. science wb d4
2. ignore math
3. finish studying hy chap 8

*

I'm going to watch He's Just Not That Into You later on! :D I'm so happy! I'm gna watch a movie FINALLY. ZOMG, I can imagine how losery I sound LOL.

Tuition was peaceful. I decided not to go to church last minute, ate at subway! Studied for a bit, then came home. I dropped my phone and the battery went flying. So much for helping to clear up right.

Anyway, I really hate that one minute you're here and the next, you've gone, in a puff of smoke. Or should I say powerpuff of smoke.

I really hate that things are so social now. I can't imagine how to carry on. I was fretting over going, did you know? I guess some people are MIA for reasons, and they should not be condemned for the way they deal with it. With that said, I still don't know why I don't have the courage to stay home and sleep/watch tv/ hang out with Seth. Maybe because that doesnt require courage. It requires cheek.

I find myself saying "I don't know (what to do)" more and more these days.

Why is it so hard to love God?

3: Presence

2009-03-14T08:06:00.000-07:00

3: Presence

Just for laughs ^^

2: Prerogatives

2009-03-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

2: Prerogatives

Jesus, in A-Z form.

A- Awesome
B- Best
C- Cool
D- Daddy
E- Everything
F- Forever(?)
G- Genius
H- Hot in the heart/ Handsome
I- I AM
J- Jehovah Jireh
K- King of Kings
L- Lord of Lords
M- Magnificent
N- No Nonsense
O- Official (I just thought of it!)
P- Permanently good
Q- Queen's Lord
R- Respected (Again, since my memory fails me, I just thought of it)
S- Sovereign
T- Terrific
U- U-R-GR8!
V- VERI NAIS!
W- Wonderful
X- XOXO
Y- YOU DA MAN!
Z- Zigamaroon ie: powerful!

They were so funny! Pity I forgot some of them though. All in all, I think I'm glad I went for WG. Even though I kept getting damn pissed off at someone, it was worth it. Sometimes, you've gots to see past all of that.

Wolfed dinner down, not a smart move, if I may add. I smelt like noodles after that, I dunno why. Hmmm (: Talked with Grace and Ethel before service started. Sat with them. I liked the first song! Hehh very fun to jump and jump ^^

Service was really good. I like Tim's sermons. Very understandable. Maybe its because it is a simper topic than what Matt/Kat/Adults preach about. But you gots to admit, he has a way of making things reach out to you. Or I guess God has a way of using him.

Anyhoos, I've got a full day ahead tmr. I shall remind myself not to consume ANY dairy products tmr.

Gnight loves

1: Outraged

2009-03-13T22:41:00.001-07:00

1: Outraged

Jonleeeeee whattttt?!?!?!?!